\ˈsel-fish\

1 : concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one’s own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
2 : arising from concern with one’s own welfare or advantage in disregard of others <a selfish act>

This is perhaps my biggest challenge. It’s all about me. Hey! Look at me! Look at what I’m doing! I don’t care about you! I want to take care of me! Who cares if we need to save money! I need more stuff that I’ll rarely use or read or watch!

The same may be said for my personal time. I’d rather veg than do anything. Anything, folks. Why spend time with family when you can watch ten more YouTube videos? Why pray and study God’s Word when you can troll Facebook for hours and hours!

Why is this so? It’s sin. But it’s also the way I was raised. I was raised virtually an only child with siblings. What d0es this mean? I have brothers and a sister, but they are a generation older than yours truly. One brother was married and out of the house before I was born. Don’t think this hasn’t started family problems. I haven’t spoken to said brother in almost 5.5 years. He thinks I’m spoiled and the rest of the family supports my being spoiled. He’s right, but he’s also wrong. That’s another topic for another day.

I didn’t get everything I wanted as a child. Now that I am an adult I just about get what I want. That shouldn’t be. Marriage is about “we” rather than “me”. My wife knows this well. She was raised among siblings her age. She was raised in a frugal household. I was raised in a frugal household too, but I suppose I’m still in my “rebellious” years.

I pray about it. I preach against it. Nevertheless it’s hard for me to practice it. HELP!

Thank God our heavenly Father wasn’t selfish.

Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus,  who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God, but made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant, and coming in the likeness of men. And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross. Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father (Philippians 2:5-11 NKJV).

Day by day, Lord, mold me in Your image. Amen.

– KT

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