Fighting the Urge Not to Work

I thought being away for a week would refresh me so much that I would be ready to hit the ground running upon my return.

Wrong.

I still don’t want to get up in the morning. I don’t want to go to bed at a decent hour. I get in the study and all I want to do is everything BUT work and pray.

All of a sudden this afternoon while visiting shut-ins it dawned on me just how much work I have to do over the next couple of weeks. Too much stuff to do, barely enough time to do it. Then there’s other appointments I must keep in my vocation as husband, father, and general human being.

Somehow, some way, these things must be completed. Yet I don’t have the get up and go that I need to have.

O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God — through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin (Romans 7:24-25 NKJV).

Question: How do you fight against laziness?

KT

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4 Responses to “Fighting the Urge Not to Work”

  1. Mine isn’t just laziness, I fight the urge not to go out when I don’t have to go to work with my disorder. I hate that about myself. Not only do I not want to get stuff done, but I don’t want to go anywhere to get me the tools to get it done. This sounds silly, but when I notice that, I make an effort to go somewhere or do something. I *refuse* to let my disorder run me. I remember that I am not my disorder, it is merely an affliction I have. I also remember that I need to make concessions with that. I hate going to the mall by myself because it is too overwhelming for me. When I am having a bout of fear about going out, I am not going to prove myself able by doing something that would set me back. Instead, going to a book store or a craft store, two places that I can go normally with little stress, are where you might find me. I don’t aim for the moon when I get like that, but I don’t ignore or give in to those feelings. If I don’t think I can even drive somewhere, walking to the mailbox sometimes even works. I set small attainable goals, even if I would like to be able to do so much more. If you are too overwhelmed to do stuff but know you have a lot to do, make a list. Don’t see it is as a daunting task list either. Just a reminder of things you have to do. Pick the one that seems the least daunting to you and put the list away in a safe place. Do that one task to the best of your ability at that time. When it is complete, and when you have rewarded yourself for doing the work, take the list out and do it again. What you don’t do, however, is berate or “punish” yourself for not getting it done. Instead, forgive yourself and move to a different task for now that you might accomplish instead. Remember to set yourself up for success just as you would your family or parishioners.

  2. KT,

    I’m not sure that I have an answer for you but I certainly relate about not wanting to work. There are many days I don’t want to be at work, around others. Last year, when my depression was at its worse, I STRUGGLED just showing up to work and somehow making it through the day. It was some of the hardest stuff I dealt with partly because I had to act as though nothing was wrong when I really felt like crap.

    I found myself praying “O God, come to my assistance. Lord, make haste to help me.” Many days that was the best I could do.

    Hang in there.

    Pax.

  3. DCEPegasus: I forgot about little rewards for getting things done. Thanks for the reminder!

    Bryan: Isn’t the Church’s liturgy a treasure trove of joy? Sometimes something like the opening sentences to a prayer office can bring peace to the soul.

  4. KT,

    The Church’s liturgy and sacraments may have saved my life. I clung to the prayer offices each day. Psalm 13 I prayed more times than I can count. I still have a list of Psalms in the back of my prayer book for quick reference. I find great solace in the prayers of the church. One doesn’t feel so alone when the liturgy is entered into with the rest of the universal Church.

    I’ve had a couple of snow days this week. Those have helped!

    Pax.

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